Where I Was & Where I Am Going

I am filled with excitement, sadness, confusion, anxiousness, and happiness. It is almost too many emotions for one person to feel at once. My mind is overwhelmed with these feelings; thus, arising questions on how I am living my life and how I should be living life.

I graduated from college in December of 2021, and those last two and a half years of college were insane to say the least. From a pandemic and mean girls to everlasting friendships. When people say that people grow up in college, that is a lie. I met more awful people in college than I ever did in high school. Girls were cruel and flat out horrible human beings. Then all of the sudden comes a global pandemic, and it is weird to say that I have lived through one. But after all of this I became stronger, more confident, and unafraid of anyone who tried to tear me down. I do not have time for people who lack goodness, so I stopped making time for them, and focused on the people who really matter and I know will be there despite all the craziness life brings.

Leaving college did not make me sad for one moment. I think I cried once, but after that I did not dwell on the fact that I am leaving a place that I have spent the past three years of my life changing and growing. I learned so many things about myself and other people.

1. People are lazy

2. People suck

3. But, if you surround yourself with the right people it is easy to ignore all of the terrible people in this world.
   

These are the most important people in my life. period. 

I just started an internship yesterday and I am starting to feel more grown up despite my significant lack of pay. I have already met quite a few people, but I know I am going to have to put myself out there more. This is a different stage of life. I need to be more outgoing, accept change, reminisce on the past but embrace the future.

There are a lot of things rolling, and everyone sees potential in me, I just have to see it myself. It can be difficult to accept that life has finally changed, but it's time to grow up and be a big girl.